MY MJ

Dont know what i am doing...
Last whole week i was down and out because of her as she wasnt talking to me. Thought that i had lost her faith in me, really hurts me. Then few days back i asked her about my bad points she replied "I DONT KNOW MUCH ABOUT you" WAS ENOUGH TO HURT ME AND KILL ME.So from that day a am feeling very light coz it made me feel and realize that the girl i loves never understood me, never believes me, never trusted me then how can i ask her to be in my life, no way i can. But i still FEELS verY proud to say that " I LOVE HER ". SHE IS MY GOD AND I AM DOING WAT SHE WANTS ME TO.
I ALSO WANT TO CONFEES THAT I HAD DRUNK ALCOHOL WHICH GAVE HUGE TROUBLE FOR 5 CONTINOUS DAY. A REAL BAD THING. i AM SORRY, YOU ALL.

Bye.......

HI ALL

THIS IS A "WASTE" I.E. ME, TRYING HARD TO END MYSELF, BUT FEW THOUGHTS ARE IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW WHICH ARE STOPPING MYSELF TO DO THIS.
1) FIRST THOUGHT THAT COMES TO MY MIND IS THAT IF I DIE THEN I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SEE, FEEL, TALK TO MY "LIFE", NEVER WILL.

2) IF I DIE MY FRIENDS AND PARENTS WILL THINK THAT I MUST HAVE HAD DONE SOMETHING VERY BAD.

I AM NOT ABLE TO KEEP UP MY WORDS, HENCE LOOSING MY SELF RESPECT TOO. I AM NOT ABLE TO HATE HER, FORGET HER, SHE IS ALWAYS ON MY MIND, KILL ME EVERY MOMENT. I AM NOT ABLE TO WORK OR SHOULD SAY THAT NOW I M NOT DOING JUSTICE TO MY JOB, WHICH SHOULD B THE MOST IMPORTANT THING AFTER HER.

SHE IS VERY HAPPY THAT NOW I AM OUT OF HER LIFE. DONT EVEN WANT TO SEE MY FACE COZ ITS BAD.

WILL BE OUT FROM HER BEAUTIFUL AND HAPPY LIFE WITHIN THIS MONTH, AS I WILL DO WAT SHE WANT ME TO.

THANKS

Dear All

Love is the most wasteful thing in life, it only gives Pain, Tears, and in last makes us felt that how inferior we are. Still it doesnt stops here it will kill you everyday, it will make you laugh and cry at the same moment, life becomes like Hell.

I am going through this phases in my life so i request u all that dont love Superior ones they will thrash you.

Take Care u all.

Hi all

My Life had read that blog and got upset with me, after several of request of mine she told me that i am trying to use her identity for her bad. Reality was different, that too only i knows. But still it was very hurting, cant get it out of my head. would u believe that i even gave her my login id and password too, still that happen.
But honestly speaking she too got a point which i promised her.
Now i want to tell everybody that i always seek trust of everybody, which is wrong, and i always thought that the one i loves, understands me.I thought that She'll understands that watever happens but this duffer just cant make her Cry, Hurt and feel Unsecure. Now after knowing wat she thinks of me, not in a position express that feeling.
So its a request of mine that Please never hurt the One you loves the most, watever happens

Pray u all for my death coz i needs it.

Take Care you All.

Can anybody tell me or guide me how can i get rid from this hell of a life. Well i think, should not think, but i am coward so tell me some easiest way to end myself. i am a waste, a real loser in this life.
The one i love asks me everything and i replies to her as honestly as i can and in turn shes so busy that she cannot answer my few of simple q's? so its no point being alive.

tell me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz